To the people that Tark too much

Reflection is important, not just to be nostalgic and be sad. 

But to seriously see how far you have come. 

So, this was my "June-August" lets just say.Let me just give you a slice of what people said to me in these past few weeks...

"You are rude"

"You are defensive"

"I never talked about you"

"You are loud"

"I know you're sensitive"

"Our personalities clash"

"You're not the bigger person"

"I know you have a problem with me"

"Just do it right, what's wrong with you?"

"What's with the tattoo and you then?"

"Is your hair blonde or brown?"

"I've had a problem with you since November"

"Life is unfair"

So when I did share these comments with people they replied:

"Why do you let idiots get to you?"

"You are very enthusiastic"

"You're the pengest Pakistani I have met, no lie"

"Are you lonely?"

"Just get out of it man"

"Don't be weak, just wait and you'll come out stronger"

"People don't always mean what they say and say what they mean"

"You need to find people that make you happy"

"They don't need you"

It's just a bit crazy. To think I have vividly remembered every word said to me and to think people are so selfish to believe I will continue to communicate with them. Honey, we are in the world of social media, unfollow me all you want. Block me. Suck my left tit, or my right one, you know? You are free. I couldn't give a dogs bollocks. Why do people invest their time in being sour? 

Have some jalebi and Kool-Aid, chill the fuck out and know that if you're someone who's said something negative to me I am laughing at you. I am loving every moment. Waking up early. Super fresh, rubbing Original Source on myself, smoking a zoot till I can see life through a Kanye "Heartless" video lens. I have people remind me that I am on my way to something. I am content.

So take me seriously or not, that's your problem. Invest that time you spend looking at others on yourself and see what you can achieve. That's all I wanted to say. Perhaps you can relate too. 

Rant over, let me make love to this blueberry muffin real quick. X

(Don't take that in the wrong way pls.)

My relationship with time

I don't seem to find the time to write on my blog as frequently as I would want to, but I think that is purely because I am always busy doing other things. Also, my blog is mostly for reflection...nowadays I seem to forget to reflect.

Yes, I have faced a heavy work load over the past week and I sit to ponder, when will I find time to chill and make time for myself. Yeah I won't go on to bore you...in fact I just want to say...

I learn things everyday, it seems like I am making it up, but it's true. I experience things and when I do, I mentally take note. You know, at times we sacrifice our thought process for others, the people that we prioritize. I have always done it, maybe you have too. These people are the ones we choose to think about, isn't that weird? There's billions of people we meet on an everyday basis, people we exchange two words with or even those people who you have known for a lifetime, and suddenly they pop into your head.

It freaks us out sometimes. You then decide to carry on thinking about them, or you choose to block it out. I always pick the second option, not because I am selfish, but because I am careful. The mind is too powerful to think about someone. This is because personally, when I think, I then imagine and then I fight patience.

Reality dominates imagination. That's what kills me. No wonder my dreams are always realistic. I think it's because I don't allow myself to hallucinate 'what life would be like if...'  that thought is lethal.

One thing I do believe is that, your relationship with your time reflects you. I don't know how, and I can't explain why...I just totally believe in it. And for me I am punctual but patient. That is what I am. And with that said, I conclude by saying that...
                                                With time it'll turn out just great.