Saturday 12 December 2015

Darling

Innocent Asma, who wouldn't dare question anything and would always be corrected.

Innocent me, who always said "yes" to make you feel that I was absolutely down for you, no matter what.
Innocent me. As if you was to rest your hand on my shoulder and whisper
"It's okay. I understand you. You're not alone."





Innocent me, who thought having you was euphoria.

Stupid me, for sharing my silence with you.

Stupid me, for crying when we were new.

Stupid me, for seeing the warmth of truth in your eyes.

Stupid me, for wearing outfits which you dared to rip apart to resurrect your fantasies.

Stupid me, for giving you my ear as well as my heart when you laughed at giving me your hand.

Stupid me, for believing you had a dream that married mine.

Stupid you, for staring at a screen, revealing your masquerade of emotions as you swapped feelings with another.

Stupid you, for calling me strong, it wasn't because of you.

Stupid you, for requesting flowers, my flowers won't make your soul beautiful.

In return for loyalty...deception.

In return for honesty...promises.

It was all an act. I realise now I was just playing the part.

So thank you for releasing me from the shackles of your pride.

You weren't worth it darling, you weren't worth it at all. 

Tuesday 27 October 2015

Monday 21 September 2015

A well of leaves

Just activating the writing muscle. Please, get comfy.




Mind.

"I remember me sat on him as he lay beneath me and we look at each other in peace. Hands locked perfectly and words marrying the sounds of rap melodies. He taps my nose and I shake my head in embarrassment and laugh at the prospect of this attention. I had to wipe the lipgloss off his tender lips as they cushioned my thumb and I held on to the side of his face. My thumb trembling because of the passion not the nerves. Because it was closure because he was a failure at unclipping the clasp but a successor when he eventually did it. 
"I'm bleeding" 
"that's supposed to happen" as I stare at the sin stained on his sheet. I didn't imagine it to be this way. I carry on dazing into his eyes and we kissed like animals in sync, our hearts pumping. The lights off now. The TV screen lit up, their mouths moving but no sound. Our hands a mess, I was caged under. He was confident on top. As we breathed into each other we rolled over and over until our bare bodies lay side by side. My leg held on his. It's not sex. It was sharing pleasure as we dismissed our pain for this one moment. Bliss." 

Synergy.

"Drink in his hand and arm round my neck I felt the spark of something new. The build up to an attraction but too good to be true. November night, alone intoxicated on my sheets drowning in conversations. Questions after questions the curiosity growing like the mould which is left now. Smiles and thoughts filled the air, my palms sweat in anticipation on my thigh. 
"What do you want right now?" 
"In life I..." 
"No. Right now, in this very moment." And a kiss shut me up. Fire blazed, his body got hotter as his hands searched my dress. My hands holding his face before it falls into my breasts. A pause, curtains drawn, little lights flickering, we remove shoes and his layers and we continue with the hum of RnB soul in our hears. I sat on his lap and we drove far away. I saw the wrapper in his hand and I refused the idea. I slept on his chest and his one night stand left me tucked up in my sheets. I dreaded to see him again. Fast forward. Stood beneath a storm of lights as a band plays on stage, "I still have a few films in mind" my mind, heart, body and soul stood still." 

Artistic.

"A Leo. Promised fire and a passion that I couldn't resist. The face of someone I'd lie to. An accent that left me asking him to repeat everything again and again. I stood outside Westfield shopping centre and waited. Next thing I'm on a dark street with my lips massaging his. Our first kiss was inside the club, we danced closely and security only stopped us three times. An engineer was his prospects. Mine were to get out of this sticky situation before I start lying to myself. On his Arsenal sheets we flick through his most wonderful drawings of portraits and a tattooed figure was his next challenge. A unique mind that wanted to create a master piece with me. The flirting was distracted by my fascination with someone else. I lived the moment nevertheless, Real played as I stared into nothingness.
"Would you ever visit South Africa?" "Yes." 
He burnt his foot on the radiator twice. Clumsy man. My heart felt uncertain but my body wasn't. The thought of water- sex, Your favourite colour- Personality, animal- your attraction. Mine was calm, black and a lion. A two week silence and that was it. Over." 

Emojis.

"American Boy as he sat on my chair resting his elbows on my desk. The first time we were in a room together. The face spoke a foreign language. And I'd do anything to be fluent. But seeing through to his heart a wall of ego stood between me and his romance. To ponder now is easy. I knew every word to the song but not every word of his sentences. Awkward silences but comfortable in his arms as we lay and watch the screen. Tight fit so I thought "what next?" Intoxicated on MD, 15% of what happened was only remembered. I can't remember our first kiss but I remember our last. As he slept my fingers entranced by his beauty and they touched every corner of his face to his neck and his chest. My lips quivered. Only a beam of light came through my curtains, the blanket a mess our clothes in a hurricane beneath our storm. My nails buried inside his back and I gasped my pleasure. Fast forward. We stood outside Leicester Square station after I gave him a book for his future. My arms swung in the awkward goodbye between us and I kissed hard, leaving a tinge of purple. His hand on my right hip and I let go of this medley and left with thoughts of "stupid me", "oh well" and "this is defo the last time isn't it." 




Tuesday 25 August 2015

To the people that Tark too much

Reflection is important, not just to be nostalgic and be sad. 
But to seriously see how far you have come. 

So, this was my "June-August" lets just say.Let me just give you a slice of what people said to me in these past few weeks...

"You are rude"
"You are defensive"
"I never talked about you"
"You are loud"
"I know you're sensitive"
"Our personalities clash"
"You're not the bigger person"
"I know you have a problem with me"
"Just do it right, what's wrong with you?"
"What's with the tattoo and you then?"
"Is your hair blonde or brown?"
"I've had a problem with you since November"
"Life is unfair"

So when I did share these comments with people they replied:

"Why do you let idiots get to you?"
"You are very enthusiastic"
"You're the pengest Pakistani I have met, no lie"
"Are you lonely?"
"Just get out of it man"
"Don't be weak, just wait and you'll come out stronger"
"People don't always mean what they say and say what they mean"
"You need to find people that make you happy"
"They don't need you"

It's just a bit crazy. To think I have vividly remembered every word said to me and to think people are so selfish to believe I will continue to communicate with them. Honey, we are in the world of social media, unfollow me all you want. Block me. Suck my left tit, or my right one, you know? You are free. I couldn't give a dogs bollocks. Why do people invest their time in being sour? 

Have some jalebi and Kool-Aid, chill the fuck out and know that if you're someone who's said something negative to me I am laughing at you. I am loving every moment. Waking up early. Super fresh, rubbing Original Source on myself, smoking a zoot till I can see life through a Kanye "Heartless" video lens. I have people remind me that I am on my way to something. I am content.

So take me seriously or not, that's your problem. Invest that time you spend looking at others on yourself and see what you can achieve. That's all I wanted to say. Perhaps you can relate too. 


Rant over, let me make love to this blueberry muffin real quick. X
(Don't take that in the wrong way pls.)

Monday 20 July 2015

True Story


Just one of those moment when you realise where you were exactly one year ago. Well this was me...


January 10th 2014


Didn't really expect this. I didn't think about what I was wearing, just turned up in a jumper and jeans and trainers. Looked around for a bit and thought "what if this was a joke?" Didn't think too deeply anyway. So he was late and I just stared at everyone walking past me...wondering if he was looking for me too. So I spot him, the light turned green. I crossed over and gave him that half air hug. He smelt nice and confused. Then his feet took us to McDonalds. I didn't care, not here for food tbh, just want to see if he's got the walk as well as the talk.

His vans didn't match his outfit but his teeth were perfect and we perched up on a stone wall and talked endlessly about school.

Still staring at his teeth. Then we walked and walked and our lips haven't touched yet, didn't want to do that just yet.

Then his phone rang, awkwardly he looked at his phone saying "oh..I'm not going to the thing with my fiend anymore." It was 8pm. It was getting dark. I looked up at the sky asking "do I laugh yet or?"

His sense of humour and dream of acting/MC'ing was cool, it made me think a lot about my future.


Whatever month 2014

Yeah, anyway so we talked for ages, three months maybe? Can't remember now. He was busy then I was busy then he was busy then I was busy. Uni work overload etc. He wanted to see me.

My intention was to understand him that's it. I think I gassed him up to be honest. Anyway, we sat in Costa and I told him straight, "your ego is bigger than your high top and your dick put together." He looked confused and laughed. Told me about his dad and how that influenced his life. Whatever. There was more to him and I knew from the moment he once opened his drop box and rapped over the American Boy instrumental.

Then same thing...Urge to see each other again. I kinda aired it for a week considering I didn't see it going anywhere.

Then, it was the case of me moving back home. I just wanted to see him. So I rang him...he told me how he's in a lot of trouble, buying shares and losing money. It was all alien to me, I didn't get it. But he was still in trouble for the next few days. I still wanted to atleast see him, so I did what I always do. "Save people." Call me fucking Wonder Woman.

On the phone he was going on and on about bills, overdrafts, debt, money. So I simply said "I'll give you money, today."

Him: "what? No come on don't..."

I wasn't whipped don't get me twisted but he said he had nothing to his name. His voice was in pain and it convinced me. (If he lied, the Lord knows best). I took out £200 that day. Money that I had but didn't need at the time.

We met again, same place, it was dark and he was going out that night. Drunk girls wobbling past. We sat, I gave him the roll of money and a note book. And simply told him to keep both and not look back. I kissed him goodbye and that was it.

So, this time last year, I rang him under the influence and told him how much I missed him. Yeah I opened up, fucking clap for me. I was deluded, I thought the first person you think of in that state "mattered." Yeah right. I asked him how things were and he said they were all right.


No thank you. No nothing. He never messaged back again yet remained active on social media. :))))))))))))))))))


I got the hint. And so I did what I do best, erased him like a mistake.

In the present time, all is well.






I just wonder, who was the fool?





















Thursday 2 July 2015

The journey of HighDefRazjah: ASAP Ferg's top producer

Artists, artists, artists but what about the people who make the cogs turn before the beat was even a beat? What if they took the stage? I looked over at the US and caught up with one of ASAP Ferg's producers HighDefRazjah to get an insight into what he's up to and to get a real grasp of what's poppin' in their streets today!


Introduce yourself, for those who haven't come across you before...

I'm HIghDefRazjah, 23 outta' Suffolk,Virginia in The United States. Indigo child, music producer and artist. I produced ASAP Ferg's Last single "Let it Go" off his Traplord Album.

What was your starting point?

I Started doing marketing under my old boss/manager Batman Va Promoter (@BatmanVaPromotr) he is currenty the Def Jam rep for the Virginia Market. Under him I learnt the game and business of music to go along with my craft. He basically educated me on everything I know.

What genre do you associate yourself with, or is that something that isn't so important to you? 

Genre really Isn't important. Music is music. The genre is the feeling or the vibe you get for the song... I can basically create any sound from how I'm feeling at the moment. That's how I create the best music.

What's your thoughts on Lex Luger and his EP LOWPROS?

I heard the project months before it's release. Lex is venturing off, creating new sounds, having fun with music, touring Europe, so all that stuff he's soaking up, he puts into his craft and Lowpros is a different sound, EDM and Lex Luger... awww man .. thats super ill ..I've been recording for LOWPROS2 tho' ha ...

You’re asked to make a beat, what's the first thing you do?

Smoke, do drugs...Just to get in the element of focus and creativity. I become someone with the sounds to create the best vibration possible for your ears, to be addicted to my sound.

What project have you worked on that you are most proud of?

Uhhhhhhhm, my EP honestly. Producing my own records and creating songs to them, Ferg's project was dope because his first album was destined to be a classic but working on debut in general is dope because you have a chance to make a mark; creating a vibe or sound.

You’re working with Travis Scott, what’s that looking like?

Me nd Travis is cool. We haven't spoken in a while but we def have done a production. I haven't heard it yet but I sent him some files, he added to it and that was that. I met him at Trillectro fest, we were excited t meet each other and the energy was crazy. Hes a dope dude man. Talented.

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Do you like staying behind the scenes as a producer or do you see yourself performing in the future?
Haha, I just did a show last night (June 30th.) Nah, I love stepping out from behind the scenes to showcase my talent...showing face is important in music, so people can get a feel for you and feel your vibe!

Who’s been the best artist to work with and why?

Has to Be Bia and Lex . They work ethic and creativy is a mirror image of myself .. and we are all young and cool with each other like fam...we have chemistry...we have something in the works for you guys.

Is life in the studio all about sippin lean, getting high and vibing or is there more to it?

It's not what it seems, drugs just put you in the vibe to work and be more creative and in tune with sound and yourself...to create the best sound.

Where do you see yourself going with your music, would you ever come to the UK?

I Wanna be the Next Kanye West. Point Blank and of course! I need some shows there hahaha!!!

Do you feel like your work gets the recognition it deserves, in terms of making a hit record, or is that something that you don’t pay mind to?
I rarely don't pay attention, the music will speak for itself. Recognition is perception, we are recognized everyday, just in different ways.The people decide a hit records.  

Who in your opinion, is killing it right now?


Future, Travis Scott are 2 of my favourite artist right now. They have the Youth and the Streets.

If you could see yourself working with anyone, who would it be and why?

I would like to sit down and work with Rihanna on a project. She has the sound, the brand and the image. She's Talented and I would love to build with her.

Damn right about that. 

What can we look forward to see from you in 2015?

In 2015, expect the unexpected. I'm coming full steam ahead, artist wise and production wise.

What has been your biggest accomplishment?

Being a father to my daughter and focusing on music.


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Was a pleasure to talk to a producer wanting to venture out as an artist, that transition isn't discussed these days so it was dope to discuss his vision. I hope to see the future Kanye West take the lime light in the near future. Ch-ch-check him out gawdddddd!

Twitter: @HighDefRazjah




Sunday 14 June 2015

Random train journey

I don't understand why I am seeing the things I am seeing right now. 

A couple playing tonsil tennis, a home less man sucking every cheese crumb from his 5cm, grey nails. And a German woman's varicose veins pulsing as she exhales in exhaustion. 
The homeless man now looks up a young woman's navy blue felt skirt as if he was looking for shelter. Lol.

Another woman's beige sweat patch is now in my face and a little toddler is screaming for no f****** reason. 

The train is more packed now, on top of the cheese crisps I can smell wet dog and sour sandal feet. The homeless man gets up from the floor now, and squints to make out what it says on the tube map. He doesn't leave and neither does the wet dog smell. There's more people on the train now, all pressed up against each other and I feel bad for sitting down. Actually, no I don't, I've been standing for 5 hours my bum has lost all it's jelly, what am I to do in the doggy position now? 

I can feel my top lip collecting sweat and now I'm worried that my back is going to start crying. Flipping great 'look' for an event and an interview aye.

An LV bag is pushed against a man's arse in denim, I wonder if he's taking that as a hint or not. The kissy kissy couple are still talking and breathing in each others eyelids, I just know if I was the woman I'd have hot breathe sticking my eye lashes together. Now the LV bag is in my face, dunno how I feel about that, and she's wearing a Pandora bracelet, I thought they were dead? Her legs finish in some Primark pumps with a belt embellishment, you know them old skool ones. I just know she works in central, probably at an all white office where she's crushing on a co-worker and will drown her secrets in wine tonight. 

Who knows? I'm just another TFL customer waiting for my money back. 

Thursday 19 March 2015

4i, the North London Rich Soul Rapper

Getting lost in Kings Cross station isn't funny… because whether you say ‘take a left’ or ‘take a right’ you're benefiting no one but your Walkometer.

I’m stood outside Costa. A man plays the piano providing an element of tranquillity as the cleaners chase people, who were ignorantly walking over the freshly mopped floor. A Michael Kors bag whacks my breasts as I try to peer over the crowds of people, in search for a dreadlock pineapple.

Well, after several phone calls, we came to realise that we were BOTH lost. It was like an unintentional game of hide and seek but I eventually met 4i. I arrived with that glamorous natural hair-blowing-in-the-wind and something-in-my-eye-but-I'll-keep-smiling look, but he was really cool about it and so we proceeded to sit in a nearby Starbucks.

Hot coffee air, walls covered in coffee bean timelines, people hypnotized by their screens and then there was us engaging in a conversation deeper than Starbuck’s pockets.

Yes, he goes by “4i”. Dominic began to laugh upon reflection of his past regretful tag-names. A North London rapper, who refuses to confine himself in a specific genre, as his music shuffles from poetry to Soul, sometimes dipping into Drum and Base but is also influenced by Reggae rhythms and Hip-hop. His recent mixtape “Soul Rich” dropped in December 2014 and was launched through his Paradime Collective, a group of equally artistic talented minds that helped to celebrate Dominic’s body of work.

But, it’s 4i’s music videos that put the rapper’s journey into context. From the very first video “Headhunters” when his hair was in the brushed-out pony tail stage, the lyrics speak on the grind as he reflects on his pride, which is visually depicted in a rush of time-lapses, showing Barnet crowds, his gym flow and a few faces from the Paradime crew. Now, “Soul Rich” includes ear pricking vocals and optimism but lyrics that relate, delivering his progression as an artist and the professionalism of his team.

I’ve done a bit of working in my life and my soul just tells me: ‘that is not where you were supposed to be.'

Did this stem from school do you think?

I wasn’t so anti-system it was more like ‘why?’ Like one plus one equals two…why? Do you know what I mean? ‘Oh cos that plus sign means you’ve got to add it together’…but WHY?
I was always that guy, it just didn’t make sense to me, but obviously that led me to getting into trouble d’d’d’d’duh, before you know it I was that little rebel at school.

Not even a whole minute went by and I had already dived into the ocean of 4i’s philosophical brain waves.  

How did it all start then?

The story of how I wrote my first verse…I was going through my dad’s CD collection…I don’t know if you know of KRS-One? 90’s Bronx, its proper old school! I heard one track called ‘Criminal Minded’ I must have been 13, 14 at that time… I was like ‘this just sounds so sick.’ And then literally from there, I began chopping up a beat, then wrote my first verse and that’s just how it started.

Your lyricism reminds me of Akala, obviously it’s not that political, but it’s that intelligent…
I was actually at a show with him the other day.

Whaaat, really?

Yeah, he’s a sick performer. But, no it’s funny you say that cos I’m tryna’ find that balance to make music where people can vibe to it, move to it, but there’s still some substance there as well. I feel Akala is very political, he really wants to put a message across and there’s nothing wrong with that, I really rate people who do that cos we need that.

So how did you go from writing your first verse to becoming 4i?

I was sat at the back of the bus and I was writing down notes on my phone and I just came across 4i, like the number four with the letter I, it looked really cool…Something just resonated. Basically like, the number four in numerology has real characteristics that represent me as a person and I was like ‘that sounds like me, that genuinely sounds like me!’ And the ‘I’ is that level of being aware of everything around you, and I’ve got like a little phrase which basically goes ‘4 is the vibe and I is the vision.’

Not going to lie, when I googled ‘4i’ I couldn’t find much, why is that?

It’s just part of the growth of an independent artist. You gotta’ do everything yourself, I’ve been kind of on-the-low doing my thing, but now we’re really pushing. Before it was the case of finding the music, finding ourselves. But, you’ve definitely found me at a very early time.

Are you into spoken word as well?

In certain songs … I’ll listen to and I’ll be like ‘hmmm, you can’t put a hook here, you can’t really go hard with the bars here, what can you put here? Ah let’s open it up to some spoken word.’ ... it makes you realise what you are ACTUALLY saying, cos lots of people rap in front of a beat, but you take away those beats. People get to hear what the lyrics are about and the substance and the concept rather than just the music and someone bopping their head to it.

I listened to “One Song Away” and you mention using a YouTube beat….

Ah, yeah! Give me a second, I have to remember this! Errr…’You hear this beat I didn’t even lease it, downloaded it off YouTube cos that’s what you do when producers give you stupid quotes like ‘who are you though?’ can’t you see I’m numero uno’ yeah yeah!...

How did you progress from a YouTube beat in ‘One Song Away’ to ‘Soul Rich’?

Shout out to DA, like a really close friend of mine, he does all the production. And it works so well with where my mind is at, where I’m trying to go with my music. That’s why I act funny working with any other producer because I’ve created such a chemistry…they don’t have that spark of inspiration and creativity.
I’m working within a team of close friends, it’s called ‘Paradime.’ So we’ve got my brother Karl who does production, design, he’s also an actor as well, we have DA who does producing, there’s a rapper called Patch he’s about to drop his Pirate E.P that’s coming out, we have Xon who does all the video-graphing, Jonathan again, cameras, editing… Shout out to the whole team. Bobby, Levi, who else is there man?

If it was possible… Dominic would be combing through his dreads to find every single person he’s missed off the list.

A woman’s hand, thick with dead skin, poverty and hopelessness waved around in front of us.
“Sorry, I’m just tryna’ get enough for a coffee,” she said as she revealed her unkempt teeth.
“Nah I haven’t got anything sorry.”
And she left in time to ask a business man who was busy brushing his shoulder off. (No Jay-Z). 

...Erm, why do I feel like I’ve missed someone so important from the team? We want to be the pioneers of our field together.

What’s the one song, which you’ve written that really hit you?

The one that I had a real connection with is ‘Live to Love’ which is the last one because I think it’s so relevant for our time right now. Like just scrap the skill, scrap the metaphors, scrap everything just listen to the message, you know what I mean. That really came from a pure place. But yeah, they all come from an honest place!

Why are your lyrics so clean?

I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness, so swearing was already forbidden in my household and as a child if I swore that was like…the wooden spoon would come straight out you know.
It’s incredibly degrading. I’ve come across more women hence why I don’t really talk about hoes. Because I’ve never really experienced that sort of element of a woman, well I have but…
And on the n word, for me it’s the history of where it comes from. As much as people like to sugar coat it and say ‘we’ve changed it now’, it’s really not cool.

What’s ‘Deep Space’ about?

When you’re in a relationship there’s this constant ‘ah what you doing?’, ‘come see me’ and there’s times where it’s just like ah you just wanna’ be by yourself. It was inspired by a true experience and I wasn’t even with the person, that’s what killed it. I was just like *kmt* I’m just not on it man, ‘I’m in deep space right now and I’ll get at you when I can.’ I think it’s something that everyone experiences it, everyone talks about it but I’ve never heard it in a song before.

What are some U.K artists that inspire you?

I don’t really listen to U.K artists.

Why?

I have no real reason. I listen to a lot of music from the U.S and I listen to a lot of Reggae. I mean I think who really inspires me right now is Wretch 32, I’m a big fan of Wretch 32 and have been for years.

Why does he stand out?

I feel that there’s loads of lyricists in the UK but few of them who are making moves right now… he’s one of the very few artists that I’d love to work with. I definitely don’t listen to UK rap apart from Wretch 32, nah like all this trap stuff nah not for me.

I stay away from this ‘UK scene’ I feel there’s so much pollution within it. There’s a lot of talent but there’s a lot of monsters as well…just dead music, rappers rapping the same words, the same flows on the same deep voices…

What about female artists?

I don’t know how to pronounce her name, it’s like scissor or…S, Z, A? She is dope. Her sound is wicked! There’s another artists who I’ve been listening to her a lot, it’s Rapsody, she’s from the states and she’s got a dope flow.

Have you ever diverted?

From, music? Nah. Music is in me. I can’t run away from music like I can’t run away from my hands. There have been times, where I’ve thought ‘is the music industry, like what comes with it, is that what I wanna do?’ Nah, I’ve never thought twice, if I blow up or if I don’t blow up.

Who inspires you, musically?

I mean, I’m a big fan of Kendrick Lamar cos I just think what he’s able to do with his music, the concepts that he puts forward, it just sounds so sick. The things he talks about, it’s just so relevant. J. Cole is another artist that I’m a big fan of.

Artists like Lauryn Hill, The Fugees, big fan of Bob Marley, Tu-Pac, Nas, KRS-One. I think Common is sick his album ‘The Dreamer, The Believer’ is one of the best Hip-hop albums, no one really spoke about it but when I heard it I was like ‘Oh my days!!!’ Easily one of my best Hip-hop albums, alongside Illmatic, alongside ‘good Kid M.A.A.D City.’

What have you been up to?

I want to create visuals for 80% 70% of the tape. I put a freestyle out in January. Performing wherever I can. Just as an individual artist, you gotta’ be your own everything you know. I got a few shows lined up coming up to summer and it’s just staying active. 
Me and DA got two projects already; they are there it’s just a matter of timing.

Do you make time to write?

I do make time to write…Sometimes, I’ll sit down to write, I’ll have my pad and my pen and I’ll be playing beats, like three hours of them and I haven’t written anything so…I try to make it a natural process rather than too much thought behind it, I just let it come out.

Did you watch the Grammy awards?

No I didn’t watch them.

Have you seen any award shows recently?

I don’t… watch TV.

Well there’s a debate about the under representation of POC in recent award shows, what’s your view on that?

This is very complex, it’s quite deep. I mean …Why do you feel that you need that, in order for you to feel like your work has been appreciated?

There’s a lot of discrimination involved, I don’t know the ins and outs, but these events are predominantly white events founders, chairman’s you know. So, it doesn’t surprise me at all.
You’ve got all these people now like ‘ahhh how can Macklemore beat Kendrick?!’ I completely agree. But ask them if they ever bought Kendrick’s album? The people who run this, they don’t care who’s a better rapper, they care about statistics… And that’s all they can look at because they’re so disconnected with what’s current right now.

There’s so much, corruption, deception and lies that people drive themselves mad to find the truth.

So how do you find gratification in music?

I had this girl from Botswana who messaged me saying ‘ah you’re music is so great for us, it means so much to us!’ For me, that’s like *dusts hands* job done. Some guy from America…was like, ‘Soul Rich,’ it made every day so much easier for him. And, yeah man that’s SO much more important than some piece of material they’ve put together and carved your name into, you know?

Are you a spiritual person?

It’s very personal, it’s just for ‘you.’ But, it’s funny cos I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness when I was younger. My parents are still Jehovah’s Witness now and me, I’ve kind of gone on my own little journey. Just being like, okay that’s one molecule of the bigger picture, let me go out there and explore for myself and see what else is out there. And that’s the journey I’m on right now.

Why did you choose to grow dreads?

What dreads represent to me, is honesty its truth, it stands for….I don’t wanna say ‘individuality’ but it says so much about a person in terms of patience that someone will have in order to grow dreadlocks. When Samson’s hair was cut off he lost his strength, it took away his manhood and dreads are associated with lions, being strong being fierce but at the same time protecting your family. Hence why I thought ‘let me get them,’ once you lock them up *kisses his teeth* I don’t have to touch them.

Where do you see yourself in the near future?

…in my mind I don’t know where I’ll be. Where I would like to be in the future, is touring the world with my music.

How do you escape from music?

Gym. Back in the day I used to run for Great Britain, a couple of times. What it was, I kind of got a bit injured then lost motivation, desire. I wanted to do some natural body building as well, we’ll see where that goes…  when I kinda re-evaluate myself I must sound so boring, cos I don’t watch TV, I don’t like fashion, I’m just so like…oooh *face palms his sentences in the air* stay away from all that stuff.

So do you not listen to the news?

Nahh.

Do you not think it’s important?

I believe ‘news’ is important, I don’t believe what we’re being fed is true. I do watch news, but it’s from outside sources …There’s no “okay we have this crisis people, these are our alternatives of what we can do, these are our solutions d-d-d-d-duh this is the problem, and this is what the government is going to … a lot of it is negative so it has a subconscious effect on people and they’re not realising it.

Do you vote?

No.

Why?

Because, I don’t believe that you can change this world by putting someone’s name in a ballet. It doesn’t make any sense to me. They never stick to their word, and there’s a saying…they’re like 
‘different sheets on the same bum.’

But some people truly believe that your vote does count…

If you look at politics throughout history, there’s always been an agenda already set. Its making people think there is a democracy but there isn’t. Well, I don’t believe there is. It’s divide and conquer, going back to Alexander the Great, they divide you through religion, class, whatever it may be cos it’s easier to control. They know that when people come together they are powerless.

What was it like when you met Justin Timberlake?

Ah you saw that! Yeah, that was surreal man. Okay, not surreal but VERY real.

What were you talking about?

one of his managers came out and we were just talking about music and I told him I’m an artist as well. And he went ‘yo, spit some bars man’ and I rapped some bars and then he goes ‘I need to get JT out here’ then Justin Timberlake came out… he was like ‘yo man, waddup?’ We were just talking about music and like being at that level where, where else is there to go? He’s just one of the best musicians in our era, in terms of dancing and music…he’s so so talented.

Do you think there’ll be a time where you’ll be rewarded financially with your music?

I want to be able to live off my music. Where I want to wake up, go to the studio and know I’m being paid for it, you know and provide for people around me. I also want to open up schools and colleges and youth clubs, I’d love that.

Two hours with 4i provided a spectacle of a spiritual and intellectual reality of the inquisitive rapper who lies behind the Paradime masquerade.

What do you fear?

"The one thing that I fear is going deep in water cos that’s when I would feel completely powerless, water have never been on my good side, on top of that you got BEASTS! But then there’s the beauty of it. If you knew everything, what you living for? It keeps me searching."

If you're into lyrical orgasms too, check him out!!!



Tuesday 24 February 2015

Banging...headache

“Turn my headphones up, louder”- Gotta Have It.

I am about 1,100 words into my essay and I have stopped. The thought of going to the library did cross my mind. Instead I am in my room, with a banging headache, curtains drawn and my hoodie providing warmth.

I can hear banging.

It’s 15:58pm and I am sat here starring at my Daily Milk Fruit and Nut like, “hold tight, let’s do this.”

I only hope that this essay gets done. Like, can I please bag a first for this essay? I’m even putting my phone on aeroplane mode, stunting like my phone is always popping off.

I think I just heard a sound…through my headphones. Kendrick kissing my eardrum tender with Babylon.

Hmm, yeah my thoughts are bit fragmented. I’m kind of ready to punch someone in the throat, but have no energy left in me at the same time. I kind of wish I was high on a field of daisy’s somewhere north but then I also wish I could sleep this headache away too.
The Birth of Venus- Sandro Botticelli, I love it.

Yeah, I can hear banging.

Well, erm yeah at the minute in my essay I’m arguing that audiences DO have power over programmes. It sounds bizarre, but I totally think, if it wasn’t for an audience then why create the television in the first place?

I can still hear banging.

Like, if everyone was into monogamous relationships, Fifty Shades of Grey would have no purpose as a book, let alone a film.

I should really be adding words to my essay, instead I’m here listening to SZA with a burning desire to rip my headphones apart but that would leave me in a very …awkward… position.

I can hear banging.

The only thing making me scream right now is word counts. It’s a love hate relationship, I actually love learning new theories and writing about them but I simply can’t hear myself right now.


Does anyone want to send me a nude? I want to …draw. 

Saturday 31 January 2015

Shack, the beat making Bakery Boy

Meshach (aka Shack Baker) was once upon a time a bedroom producer and is now part of a hip hop collective called "Bakery Boys." I had no idea who they were until my Twitter DM pinged at me. For a Twitter user getting a DM with a SoundCloud link isn't new. But he asked about my journalism so I thought… let me bag an interview with this guy!

Thanks to TFL I was late. My train decided to break 8 stops before my destination, so I did what any other impatient person would do... I ran. Lord knows where my feet were taking me but once I caught sight of a black cab I jumped in and didn't give a bollocks about the fare. 

I had arrived. I stood before this tall building on the corner, the door was twice my height and 10 times my weight.  The receptionist had flawless make-up, I avoided every shiny object that would remind me how shit my sweaty face looked.

It turned out that Shack was late too, he arrived in a navy on navy outfit with fresh white,blue,green Air Max's holding a brown leather holdall in his right hand. My immediate thoughts were, okay, he means business.

The interior was SO sexy I struggled not to drool. We went into a lift and he vented about how shit the parking was. As the doors opened I was welcomed to this huge dining space surrounded by comfy study booth type seating areas.  Brown leather sofas, oriental rugs, mahogany coffee tables; this was Antique Roadshow meets Grand Designs. A few people were jotted around, either their heads were buried in books or they were chilling on their smartphones. 

Shack was sat on this chair. Tell me that ain't a sexy chair?

So, we sat and put our bags down. Shack insisted on buying food, I politely settled with a coffee; typical me.  His eyes searched the menu and he spent ages trying to decide on what he wanted. I suggested Caesar Salad and fries and he went along with it. (Literally just became friends.) A waiter with coiffed hair took our order, it was time. As I sat to compose myself, my eyes were fixed on his silver decoupage ring and his metal snap button earring.

"Check one, check two. One two inside."

Let’s do this, how did you get into music?

"I used to work for a recording studio when I was 18…19, so that built my passion for music. I was actually a bedroom producer, I made beats in my room."
waiter arrives with our drinks

What’s it like working with your brother?

“My brother Ace had always been into music, we were quite lyrical and naturally it took off like that. I’m the eldest, Ace is number three.”

So, what is Bakery Boys?

“Bakery boys consists of me Shack Baker, my brother Ace Boogie and our good long term friend, Dirty Dre. Me and Dre have always worked together and we developed fashion brands together, it’s been over 10 years now. So, we always did fashion, music was something we did on the side.”

Our office space was called The Bakery.”
Shack smiles in nostalgia

“Some of the designs we had, one of them in particular was a character called the Dough Boy.”

Ohhhhh

“We’d throw parties and people used to go “lets go to the bakery,” I thought it was a bit cheesy but what I do like is the duality. Making dough. Stacking cheddar.”

What were you like at school?

“I’ve always been a straight creative, always, always, always.”
His Whatsapp pings and the waiter arrives with his food

“And…I’ve always been a great drawer that was my thing. My mum wanted me to go into architecture. I was like…”fuck I can’t do that?! That’s boring.” I’m naturally quite melodic, so for me they’re very linked, the musical side and the creative.”

Mary Mother of Jesus- The last thing Meshach drew! SO sick.

What were your musical influences?

“Er… we were quite musical as a family. My dad was around a lot of musicians and studios so we got a chance to see what that environment looks like. When I was young I saw the recording studios and I was like…”yeah I wanna do something like that!”

What was on your playlist?

“As a kid, I think one of my biggest influences was listening to Wu-Tang.”
His eyes began to roll into his archive of memories

“Early Jay-Z, like Reasonable Doubt, we’re talking from ’96…”
Rah in that year I was 2!

“I was a proper hip-hop head. Name any hip-hop artist, any tune…I knew it.”

You performed at Wireless right?

“We did it twice.” 
He smiles in pride

“It was the maddest jump. One man from Live Nation saw and listened to Hustlin’ behaviour and was in love with it. He said “if an opportunity came up to perform at wireless would you kill it?”
I said, I’d kill anything you put in front of me cuz.”

So how comes you’re not signed?

“My team, we’re all on the same wave. Too many artists work so hard right? to do their own thing, with a big following and what not. Big labels sign you when you’re about to win the race. So, as soon as you’ve done all that hard work, it’s like “yeah we’re buddies” and then you won’t hear from them no more. Then they’re gonna’ blame you cos you ain’t got that buzz no more. Nah that’s dead.”
He grinds pepper on his salad

“And I think in this date and age I don’t think you need to, sometimes your best team is yourself, cos you got the vision and you know what you want.”

What do you listen to?

“I’m so eclectic, it’s mad. Like, when I’m in my car I listen to Smooth FM and Magic FM, everyone says I’m an old man. I bang it like… I literally bang it.”
He loves the word “bang.”

“I built a playlist the other day and it was like Frank Ocean, Jennifer Hudson, there’s a guy called Mayer Hawthorne and Jessie Ware, and that’s like modern stuff but then I’ll still throw in an old school like …Dianna Ross, or the Isley brother’s. They were classic.”

What song takes you back to your childhood?

“Probably Michael Jackson, say like “Bad” or “Thriller”. If I listen to that, straight away I’ll get nostalgic. Me, Ace maybe Locks dancing around in our pyjamas trying to moonwalk and shit. If you didn’t dance to that, then something was wrong with you.”

What inspires you?

“Everything. Inspiration comes from living. When I say living I mean experience stuff, I dunno go out, travel, have relationships those things bring real experiences and they inspire me to write about stuff.”

What the biggest challenge that you've faced?

“I think one of the hardest things is, being you and contacting people, might wanna get in contact with blogs, like they don’t give a fuck about your existence until they’re either a trend, or until other people are talking about them so they jump on the bandwagon. Sometimes it’s like throwing your shit at a wall.”
Adele- "Rolling in the Deep" plays in the background

Did you go uni?

“Nope.”

Why?

“Just didn't.”

Why?

“You know what, I tried going to uni. Cos I used to work for a recording studio and they wanted to keep me there. I was like, I’m a young guy I should really go to uni to develop myself. I decided I wanted to do sound recording in uni and I went to…there’s a college called SAE. They were like cool. Then, my local authority wouldn’t pay for my tuition fees. They was chatting shit so... what the f….like…what the f?!. They was just talking shit, just chatting crap.. So it kinda threw me in the opposite way, I’m trying to do the right thing, but at the time they just pissed me off.”
There was anger in his voice

What’s your advice to aspiring artists?

“It’s keeping that intense focus. You owe it to yourself. What a lot of musicians do is focus purely on music and in this date and age that’s a myth, you can’t do that. Like getting out there is just as important.”
His Whatsapp pings but he ignores it

“The flip side is obviously I fucked around for a couple years and you think to yourself “shit” in that space of time I could have got a degree. But, I haven’t got no regrets I had fun. It was experiences that were worth doing. So this is now the embodiment of everything.”
And I won’t stop until I get what I want.”

How do you reward yourself?
He couldn't stop smiling.

“That’s a good question. Back in the day, I would have bought a pair of trainers, gone on a date, whatever. I think for me the reward is just the work. I’m quite ambitious so the reward is knowing that something’s fallen into place that’s gonna set me up for the next goal.”

What makes you proud?

“Fulfilment.”

...through what?

“Through work.”

...just your work?

“No. See what makes me proud is, I’ve got children. I come from a large family. Me doing what I’m doing and achieving stuff?!... The ripple effect it has within my family is powerful. If you say to my son “Where’d your dad get that from?” he’d say “from working hard.” That’s what makes me proud.

What do you think you’ll be doing in 5 years’ time?

“I’d definitely still do music. Like we’d be developing the label with an agency as such, creative, that’d cover like everything from acts, film, music, design so I see we’d be putting a lot of energy into that.”

What do you fear?

"Only thing I fear is like… not do well, that’s the only thing I can think, that if it happened I'd actually be crushed like “fuck.”"

I told him how I struggle to stay focused and committed to one thing and he started laughing.

“See, when I was in the office I’d be on the phone to girls like “ah yeah yeah” cos I thought, this is my company I can do what I want. Dre was like “shack you can’t do that, fuck them girls man, its dumb.” Successful people don’t do that. They’re fucking focused.”

What’s your earliest musical memory?

“One time when I was about 17 I holler’d at Princes Trust and they gave me £500 to record at a commercial recording studio for one day. And I did it. I got there, I didn’t know what to record, then the girl I was seeing at the time, she could sing. We made a really soulful, housey kinda garage song called “I love the way.” That was dope actually."

Who would you like to work with?

“The sound that I like at the moment is quite eclectic, groovy kind of, kind of soulful bounce. So the sound is quiet grown, but it’s got that old school but modern. Definitely, I’d work with someone like Jamiroquai, he’s mad groovy. I think that’d be dope still.”

What are you doing for Valentines day?

Working.”

What did you do for New Years?

“I worked. It depends where you are. Valentines?..tssst, I don’t really care about it. A lot of it is just materialistic, nah fuck all that. I always get my mum a card and chocolates, she doesn't give a fuck about the card but she loves the chocolates still…also my birthday is a couple days after it.”

How will you celebrate?

“Last year we worked on my birthday. You can go out and have fun but you have the whole of the year to do that. If someone rang me up for a DJ set, I'm gonna say “yeah” I never say no.”

You know what? Running after a black cab was worth it. The magnitude of insight made me respect his work even more. He proved that you don’t have to have Jay-Z’s lips to be a Jay-Z.

Note to Shack: If we ever bump into each other I won’t air you.

P.S CHECK THEM OUT



Friday 23 January 2015

Spandex, Wigs and Fishnets

That’s right. Let’s talk drag.

The quiet Saturday nigh-in didn’t happen, instead I went clubbing to explore the antics of gay clubbing and dress up drag!

It’s unclear when drag was introduced in Britain. But definitely after the war, the clubbing culture soared as drinking and music became more accessible. The term ‘drag’ refers to clothing and drag queen means, usually a man, who impersonates a woman. It’s not just about dressing up in dresses and wearing lip stick. There’s something beneath the escapade of glamour and glitter that sparked my curiosity. So as I always do, I went exploring!!!


With a Tequila hum and lemon smacking lips I danced before latex super heroes, dominatrix princesses and a lady in a white meringue dress shouting “I am a Christmas tree!”


Seductive eye contact was exchanged between two women in cat suits as I walked over to the beer frothed bar. The ceiling cluttered with pulsating strobe lights. The DJ mixed his tracks overlooking the crowds of spirits, sweat and saliva. Rihanna ‘Pour it up’ invited some to slut drop, whilst others focused on mastering how not to spill their drink and twerk at the same time. I felt like a stiff pole in comparison to the flamboyant choreography around me. 

I began to observe trends and patterns. 

Before I got too jealous over some woman’s buoyant curls it took me a few seconds to realise it was a wig. Wigs galore, from brunette waves to sleek blonde 24 inch pony tails. Crowd surfing champagne bottles highlighted the faces of theatrical make-up.  But as I lost count of false lashes and lace fronts I began to question... there must be more to this performance right? It’s deeper than what I'm seeing before my eyes, surely?

I was being hugged by strangers and a fat reality check slapped me across my face. How the fuck am I meant to question someone about their life choice? Regardless of whether this was me researching or quenching my curiosity....nah it didn't feel right.

“I’m not exactly a girly-girl, who would have guessed?”


Failure is and was never my best friend. So...with time, I resorted to desk research.

mygendercatharsis.blogspot.co.uk. got me hooked. 

Her blog is used as a platform to express her feelings, I continued to investigate.  Her friendly tone was comforting and so she told me more about what it's like to be a part time girl’.

“I was struggling with depression which was caused in part by the fact I was struggling with my gender identity. I wasn’t out to anyone, and I was feeling trapped.

“Well of course my girlfriend is someone I really love! When I came out to her 9 years ago I wasn’t expecting our relationship to survive but here we are, still going strong! :) I don’t really have any celebrity crushes, but, I do love celebrities who use their image/status to try and change things in the world. Emma Watson’s recent stand for feminism comes to mind, she is an amazing individual, and too cute too!”

I didn’t expect her to mention anything about feminism. Being accepted as a woman in society is one thing, yet after reading this, it fascinated me that she has adopted what it’s like to be a woman politically as well as emotionally.

I was curious to understand her perspective on drag queen culture.

“Well this is the thing, and you’re probably not going to like me for it, but I don’t like the majority of drag queens. The impression I get is that the majority seem to be larger than life caricatures of femininity, rather than a homage of it. They reinforce stereotypes of trans-women being easy targets for amusement and harassment.”

See, from my clubbing experience it is captivating to know that clubbing isn’t the be all and end all. It’s just a leisure pattern that celebrates drag queen culture.

I was itching to get her thoughts on religion.

“What I have a problem with is religious extremists from every religion, people who try and force their view of how their religious text say you should live your life on people who do not believe. Or those who channel such a large amount of hatred to minorities (like me) in the name of their god.” 

How can we change this? Although the drag queen culture and gay clubbing culture is celebrated and advertised in British society, isn't it an issue that discrimination still exists?

“It would be nice just to be accepted at face value as the gender I present as. If I'm dressed as a woman, treat me like one. No glances, stares, "is that a man?" comments behind me, shouts across the room, fear of using toilets, or so on. We do no harm. A lot of people do accept us, but there is a minority that makes things difficult.”

The reality is, discussing the Transgender community is a taboo subject. Even after absorbing more about her I will never understand what it’s truly like. I went into a restaurant yesterday and my waiter had better contouring than Kim K. Could I compliment his HD brows? Would that be offensive? It’s simply an ongoing controversy. Will this change for the better? We can only hope.

“I think strong women are greater role models for women of all ages. I don’t know many superheroes but I would probably be Jean Grey from the X-Men.”









Thursday 15 January 2015

M.I.A Governs Speech, Knowledge, Music and the Arts


“…the last time I read on their government website it said If I ever came back to Sri-Lanka there’s a grave waiting for me” -proclaims the enigma rapper M.I.A.

Sri Lankan born, Maya Mathangi Arulpragasm, widely known as M.I.A. Brought up in LDN and raised in the shadows of Sri Lankan civil war, a female rapper and multi-talented artist communicates political messages through a mash up of global sounds. Recognised and praised by rap icons such as Nas: “M.I.A’s sound is the future.”
Ayeeee

She also speaks through her art and so I did a quick edit inspired by her loud style.

This is how it began. Maya produced a demo tape “Galang” which gave her an online presence before getting a record deal. Once signed to XL Recordings in 2003, “Galang” was released which acclaimed No. 8 on the US dance charts!

Soon after in 2005, she released her first album “Arular” named after her father.  Regardless of her success, she gained much attention from critics who closely analysed her revolutionary narrative sandwiched by club beats, hints of electronica iced with radical rap. Like,“Bucky Done Gone”which signifies Maya’s visit to Brazil. After noticing a massive class divide, she decided to encompass Favela funk and sounds of the ghetto to break the mould on commercial radio.
WARNING: Heavy dose of libido  

Her second album “Kala” (2007) was named after her mother. And my all time FAV is  “Bird Flu. Maya resurrects beatbox rhythms in her DIY music video; delivering gunshots with remnants of punk and political lyrics:

Ghetto pops, food drops, stored up in my stable” illustrating one of her profound themes; governments in third world countries.
Yasssssss

This was shortly followed by her third album “Matangi” released in 2013 which shows a transition from politically inspired lyrics to blends of Middle Eastern drums. I lurrrve her song "Y.A.L.A” where it's all about, you always live again! A spin on rapper Drake’s “Y.O.L.O
HOMEWORK: Watch the video when you're high then drop me a DM.

BUT she didn't sell as well as her last two albums and soon her career became challenged by critical acclaim.

Her alternative outlook on being a musician sets her apart from commercial artists in the present time. After being approached by big names like Timbaland, she began to refuse opportunities that would have heightened her career -as the first Sri Lankan, female rapper in the twenty first century. This makes her badass.

She focuses on her own vision and created her own label “Neet” on which she released her latest album “/\/\ /\ Y /\” (2010). Having said that, her image began to shine bright like a diamond when Jay-Z and T.I sampled her single “Paper Planes” for their track “Swagga Like Us.” This lead to an iconic Grammy performance in 2009, where Lil Wayne, T.I, Jay-Z AND rapper Kanye West performed their remix alongside Maya who rocked, despite being eight months pregnant and receiving contractions on stage. If I was her... my water would have broken ...twice.


Adele once did it and so did Maya at the Super Bowl halftime performance in 2012. (Edited by moi.)


Shit went down when Maya was given the opportunity to perform at the Super Bowl halftime
performance in 2012, alongside Nicki Minaj and Madonna. The trio performed “Give Me All Your Luvin” in ornate roman costume and swept the audience... until Maya rapped her verse and stuck her middle finger up. She was scrutinized and victimized by many celebrities, NBC and NFL yet her response was:

I don’t give a shit.”
At least she's honest.

Her bravado may not be to some people’s taste but she stands by that.

I’m exactly the person that kind of, needs to be eradicated” she admitted in an interview with Q host, Jian Ghomeshi on CBC radio. She sits holding her head, then plays with the radio leads every five minutes, unravelling them as she processes her answers. Jian patiently waits a lengthy five seconds before she answers every question, as if she was biting her tongue.

After being asked whether her career relies on causing a stir, she quickly responded:

“The only reason you think I'm doing this to cause a stir is because no one else is doing it
That’s why you think I stick out like a sore thumb; ‘somebody who is obviously so wrong’…and it’s like…no.”

A journalist took-the-piss as Maya met New York Times journalist, Lynn Hirschberg who published an article titled “M.I.A’s Agitprop Pop”. Here, Hirschberg presented her as naïve and hypocritical; overseeing her political stand for supposed personal gain. Without hesitation... Maya backfired by tweeting “CALL ME IF YOU WANNA TALK TO ME ABOUT THE N Y T TRUTH ISSUE, ill b taking calls all day bitches ;)" alongside Hirschberg’s phone number.

If you look carefully you can see me. "Bad Girls" (2013).

Indefinitely, Maya raises awareness through her music, words and her actions about issues which aren’t tackled by artists in the way that she does.

In 2010 her stay in America was questioned again, when she released a music video supporting her single Born Free”. The video reveals a merciless truth depicting a group of red-haired youths who are gathered into a military van, taken to a derelict land where they are killed one by one. You also see, a man smoking crack, a naked couple having sex and a kid shot in the head. Ultimately, it expresses the extra-judicial murders of Tamil civilians by the Sri Lankan army.

But no, the video was under scrutiny and her political message was overlooked. The Guardian commented “…it also contravenes terms and conditions about levels of violence in user-uploaded content.”

Yet, a whole documentary was broadcasted by Channel 4 called “No Fire Zone: The Killing Fields of Sri Lanka” and that was OK’d LOL. And YouTube immediately banned the video. It’s clear that her expression challenges the conventions of a celebrity but that is what makes her different!!!

A South-Asian woman has never reached to this level of publicity in the music industry in the UK. The last time I remember a South Asian woman making POSITIVE news, is Sayeeda Warsi. The first female Pakistani Muslim to attend cabinet and news anchors gasped as she put her foot down and resigned over her disagreement with the government’s views on the Gaza conflict in 2014.
Shame Dawud Kamran.

So, no we’re not just about constantly being a victim aka Shilpa Shetty’s five minute screen time on Big Brother in 2007 in which she was called “Shilpa poppadum” and was told to “f*** off home”. Malala is another example of an iconic South Asian who smashed the glass ceiling and spoke for women’s educative rights in Pakistan…yet people still questioned why she received the Nobel Peace Prize award in 2014.
*SIGH*

Therefore as Maya continues to do what she does, perhaps it would invite more South Asian women to the public eye and be vocal instead of...sweating your tits off in A-level then buying a one way ticket to marriage/henna apprenticeships/Asda.

All I'm saying is, I'd do anything to have a kebab with her and just listen to what she has to say because it feels fucking great to be able to empathise with a warrior!!!