True Story

Just one of those moment when you realise where you were exactly one year ago. Well this was me...


January 10th 2014

Didn't really expect this. I didn't think about what I was wearing, just turned up in a jumper and jeans and trainers. Looked around for a bit and thought "what if this was a joke?" Didn't think too deeply anyway. So he was late and I just stared at everyone walking past me...wondering if he was looking for me too. So I spot him, the light turned green. I crossed over and gave him that half air hug. He smelt nice and confused. Then his feet took us to McDonalds. I didn't care, not here for food tbh, just want to see if he's got the walk as well as the talk.

His vans didn't match his outfit but his teeth were perfect and we perched up on a stone wall and talked endlessly about school.

Still staring at his teeth. Then we walked and walked and our lips haven't touched yet, didn't want to do that just yet.

Then his phone rang, awkwardly he looked at his phone saying "oh..I'm not going to the thing with my fiend anymore." It was 8pm. It was getting dark. I looked up at the sky asking "do I laugh yet or?"

His sense of humour and dream of acting/MC'ing was cool, it made me think a lot about my future.


Whatever month 2014

Yeah, anyway so we talked for ages, three months maybe? Can't remember now. He was busy then I was busy then he was busy then I was busy. Uni work overload etc. He wanted to see me.

My intention was to understand him that's it. I think I gassed him up to be honest. Anyway, we sat in Costa and I told him straight, "your ego is bigger than your high top and your dick put together." He looked confused and laughed. Told me about his dad and how that influenced his life. Whatever. There was more to him and I knew from the moment he once opened his drop box and rapped over the American Boy instrumental.

Then same thing...Urge to see each other again. I kinda aired it for a week considering I didn't see it going anywhere.

Then, it was the case of me moving back home. I just wanted to see him. So I rang him...he told me how he's in a lot of trouble, buying shares and losing money. It was all alien to me, I didn't get it. But he was still in trouble for the next few days. I still wanted to atleast see him, so I did what I always do. "Save people." Call me fucking Wonder Woman.

On the phone he was going on and on about bills, overdrafts, debt, money. So I simply said "I'll give you money, today."

Him: "what? No come on don't..."

I wasn't whipped don't get me twisted but he said he had nothing to his name. His voice was in pain and it convinced me. (If he lied, the Lord knows best). I took out £200 that day. Money that I had but didn't need at the time.

We met again, same place, it was dark and he was going out that night. Drunk girls wobbling past. We sat, I gave him the roll of money and a note book. And simply told him to keep both and not look back. I kissed him goodbye and that was it.

So, this time last year, I rang him under the influence and told him how much I missed him. Yeah I opened up, fucking clap for me. I was deluded, I thought the first person you think of in that state "mattered." Yeah right. I asked him how things were and he said they were all right.


No thank you. No nothing. He never messaged back again yet remained active on social media. :))))))))))))))))))


I got the hint. And so I did what I do best, erased him like a mistake.

In the present time, all is well.






I just wonder, who was the fool?

The journey of HighDefRazjah: ASAP Ferg's top producer

Artists, artists, artists but what about the people who make the cogs turn before the beat was even a beat? What if they took the stage? I looked over at the US and caught up with one of ASAP Ferg's producers HighDefRazjah to get an insight into what he's up to and to get a real grasp of what's poppin' in their streets today!

Introduce yourself, for those who haven't come across you before...

I'm HIghDefRazjah, 23 outta' Suffolk,Virginia in The United States. Indigo child, music producer and artist. I produced ASAP Ferg's Last single "Let it Go" off his Traplord Album.

What was your starting point?

I Started doing marketing under my old boss/manager Batman Va Promoter (@BatmanVaPromotr) he is currenty the Def Jam rep for the Virginia Market. Under him I learnt the game and business of music to go along with my craft. He basically educated me on everything I know.

What genre do you associate yourself with, or is that something that isn't so important to you? 

Genre really Isn't important. Music is music. The genre is the feeling or the vibe you get for the song... I can basically create any sound from how I'm feeling at the moment. That's how I create the best music.

What's your thoughts on Lex Luger and his EP LOWPROS?

I heard the project months before it's release. Lex is venturing off, creating new sounds, having fun with music, touring Europe, so all that stuff he's soaking up, he puts into his craft and Lowpros is a different sound, EDM and Lex Luger... awww man .. thats super ill ..I've been recording for LOWPROS2 tho' ha ...

You’re asked to make a beat, what's the first thing you do?

Smoke, do drugs...Just to get in the element of focus and creativity. I become someone with the sounds to create the best vibration possible for your ears, to be addicted to my sound.

What project have you worked on that you are most proud of?

Uhhhhhhhm, my EP honestly. Producing my own records and creating songs to them, Ferg's project was dope because his first album was destined to be a classic but working on debut in general is dope because you have a chance to make a mark; creating a vibe or sound.

You’re working with Travis Scott, what’s that looking like?

Me nd Travis is cool. We haven't spoken in a while but we def have done a production. I haven't heard it yet but I sent him some files, he added to it and that was that. I met him at Trillectro fest, we were excited t meet each other and the energy was crazy. Hes a dope dude man. Talented.

Do you like staying behind the scenes as a producer or do you see yourself performing in the future?

Haha, I just did a show last night (June 30th.) Nah, I love stepping out from behind the scenes to showcase my talent...showing face is important in music, so people can get a feel for you and feel your vibe!

Who’s been the best artist to work with and why?

Has to Be Bia and Lex . They work ethic and creativy is a mirror image of myself .. and we are all young and cool with each other like fam...we have chemistry...we have something in the works for you guys.

Is life in the studio all about sippin lean, getting high and vibing or is there more to it?

It's not what it seems, drugs just put you in the vibe to work and be more creative and in tune with sound and yourself...to create the best sound.

Where do you see yourself going with your music, would you ever come to the UK?

I Wanna be the Next Kanye West. Point Blank and of course! I need some shows there hahaha!!!

Do you feel like your work gets the recognition it deserves, in terms of making a hit record, or is that something that you don’t pay mind to?

I rarely don't pay attention, the music will speak for itself. Recognition is perception, we are recognized everyday, just in different ways.The people decide a hit records.  

Who in your opinion, is killing it right now?

Future, Travis Scott are 2 of my favourite artist right now. They have the Youth and the Streets.

If you could see yourself working with anyone, who would it be and why?

I would like to sit down and work with Rihanna on a project. She has the sound, the brand and the image. She's Talented and I would love to build with her.

Damn right about that. 

What can we look forward to see from you in 2015?

In 2015, expect the unexpected. I'm coming full steam ahead, artist wise and production wise.

What has been your biggest accomplishment?

Being a father to my daughter and focusing on music.

Was a pleasure to talk to a producer wanting to venture out as an artist, that transition isn't discussed these days so it was dope to discuss his vision. I hope to see the future Kanye West take the lime light in the near future. Ch-ch-check him out gawdddddd!

Twitter: @HighDefRazjah

Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/taeguxxi  & soundcloud.com/drughabitrazjah