Applying to universities

Well just to update I have had an offer from both Northumbria and Leeds, Leeds are currently arranging an interview for me next year, and for Northumbria I have to have 320 points :| yep, it was a random choice to be perfectly honest but I am more than happy that it is my first offer! Having spoken to a fellow friend who came back from university today, he told me how University is just the best, how the work is easy and how not to worry about the offers just yet as most of them accept you after Christmas, that was a great relief! After having the head of sixth form snatch him away from me I walked away with a tad bit of confidence that everything will be in good time!

Now I need to work my bum off. I need to motivate myself or else no grades therefore no university. Today I received a welcome pack from Northumbria which contains everything about accommodation and fees. That is all good but it is so far away, I really do want to be away from home but in my gut I feel it's maybe too far from home. What is there's an emergency or I leave something behind? It's in Newcastle, very up north but that's brilliant! New atmosphere, new people, for all I know I may live there in the future, who knows what this brilliant opportunity holds for me! I am very nervous about London though, I have always wanted to study there, it's not too far away, yes it's expensive but it's all worth it in the end! I really want to go to Westminster  I really do! I am so passionate about London life, the hustle and bustle of everything there, I'm not phased by the moral panics of crimes, hoods, knives. Nope, that's nothing to me, the expensive living costs don't bother me either, I honestly want to make the most of my loans and be a successful Journalist at the end of the day!

I think it's new and exciting to be away from home, it's time to prove that I can be an independent individual, that I can live away, be motivated for a career then be what I want to be! I want this so much, enthusiasm oozes out of every body part, I am aware that interviews mean I have to persuade them that I know everything about Journalism that there is to know! I need to revise and understand the concept of what is in the media, but I will be honest, I need to show them that I am here to learn. I am still a student, even lecturers are human beings they still have lots to learnt too, we all do. No one is 'all knowing' are they? I need to up my game.

Motivation is hard. Every teenager has this lurking in them somewhere, some show their lack of effort more than others do. Parents/teachers automatically label this as being 'lazy'. No it's not that. It's just hard to process the seriousness, the pressure, it's like a ticking clock, then at the end the bomb will blow but we're just waiting and waiting because eventually it'll blow anyway no matter how hard to try to stop it.
Ridiculous example.

But for now I have just purchased new trousers, happy me. I also have a new jacket which makes me look very militant, according to a friend it makes me look as if I have a 'AK-7' hidden underneath it; best comment yet.

Right it's quarter past 7 right now, too late to be blogging, yet it is revising, just creatively expressing my thoughts you know. I find it refreshing.

Adios tadpoles.

"What is Journalism?" You tell me expert

Currently doing the opposite of what miss calls 'coasting' and actually researching what Journalism involves, or more importantly what it actually means.
I mean I understand what it includes, the idea of print and social media, the internet, the transmission of news to the world.
Being able to feed society news about the happening around them.
I just watched a 1940's Vocational clip about Journalism, and what it offered in that time.
Just to establish how this career came about, I am so curious to understand why this was so different from being a writer.
The idea that you could officially communicate through telephones and transfer information to the news-room, then it was that person's responsibility to transcript whatever was reported to them, this was then the basic method of producing newspapers. Yep it fascinated me quiet a bit.
To be brutally honest I never wanted to be a Journalist, as a child I had this crazy idea of sitting in a doctors seat and helping patients. Then during my GCSE's I had a phase of wanting to be a calligrapher, that then changed to wanting to be a architect. All sorts of careers just bounced around my mind.
Now that I have reached the stage where university applications have become the life of me, I should really have set in stone a career in mind. For me that is now Journalism.
Enough of that now, I must get back to my Nth tab of research, initially I just wanted to re-write my personal statement, but then I thought about widening my knowledge about Journalism and reporting, just so that when it comes to writing I can infuse what I have learnt on paper.
I do believe I can write well, it's just a shame that when other people (my teachers) read my work, they can never understand why it 'doesn't make sense'. Well I know what I am on about so screw them.

Today I was told that according to my predicted grades and my current achievement I won't get the required grades for the university I want to go to; Westminister.

Yes keep gorping, I have had enough people telling me the practicality of things, how I could afford it, whether it's the right decision.

Me, I go with the flow, I hate planning too far ahead of myself because I believe there's always changes and therefore there is no point expecting too much is there?

Fair enough aim high, but don't get ahead of yourself then be disapointed.

Preaching over.

I must go and continue the 28946283 draft of my personal statement.

I hate the two words now, it's like metal symbols to my ears. "personal statement" go away.

I do hope this is done soon, I even prayed. Yes I am so desperate to get somewhere now.

Life man.

Untouchable

Went to see Untouchable today, which happened to be a French film with sub-titles!

Yeah the idea of reading off the screen was a little hard at first, but to be honest I forgot the more I got into it.

Basically about a black guy wanting a third disapproval from a job vacancy, the idea that he needed 3 businesses to turn him down to claim benefits in order to support his family of many children at home.

On his third interview, we find that he is in a rather antique french house with all these paintings of white 'important' people on the wall and red velvet touched chairs etc.

Anyhow, with his casual manner he storms in and says all he wants is a signature to prove he went to the interview and they turned him down. However, the employer (which you find is handicapped  is amused by his character and this is how their friendship began.

From my perspective,

• i think it presented how someone of such higher status have the capacity to accept someone lower perhaps
• the idea that being handicapped didn't prevent this guy to be so rich and successful
• how poverty is real issue that could be prevented by the rich
• based on a true story it highlighted the reality of lives today
•  barriers in life just make you that much stronger
• prevail of racial acceptance
• You can't underestimate what people can do
• don't think to far ahead... they could be gay

Anyhow, I don't really know what made me want to comment on a film, just made me think. 

I Totally recommend it.

Media BTEC my foot

Now for those of you who aren't aware what a BTEC is, well let me put it to you...

it is a qualification designed to enhance the academia of idiotic people who don't have the patience for A-levels.

Yes fair enough for those working class average students it is a whole lot easier, as the grade is determined by the quality of your coursework, but check this out..

right now I'd rather sit in a surprise English mock exam and fail, than sit here and fill in stupid amounts of sheets that complete a booklet of utter nonsense, ready for me to comment on crime dramas today.

I'll probably sit here and make up a crime drama on the spot regardless of copyright and other sentimental bullshit that you may decide to pick up on, however my point is I don't want to do it, simply because it's totally undermining my intelligence and downgrading the teachers too.

I am sure commenting on the demographic content on a typical crime drama isn't going to give me the power of making pigs fly, it could... but it doesn't I'm afraid.

Makes me so annoyed that I can sit here spending endless hand movement writing so much shit, excuse my french, because quite frankly (the Alevel teachers can back me up on this one) I could be sat here making pretty mind maps for revision or indulging in love texts for English. I don't need the insight of media to understand it, I know how the Media works, its all lies ready fro the consumer to do his thing and engulf itself with whatever is being said around them.

That's mainly the reason why I want to work for the media as a Journalist, because it wouldn't matter whether what I was saying was right or wrong, or true, at the end of the day you will always read what you see or listen to what people are talking about regardless of it's true validity.

Anyway this time could have been spent on defining key terms such as "Hammocking" but right now I'd rather burn the booklet and swallow the ashes than to laugh at how stupid all this is.

But yes folks, don't do BTEC's, they are...well absolute garbage.

The runaway teacher and student

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2210734/Megan-Stammers-Read-Jeremy-Forrests-fake-CV-French-bar-work-Bordeaux.html

The guy turned out to have a fake identity, poor guy really did blow his cover when applying for a job!

I did always wonder though how on earth did the girl just go along with it all, there must have been the idea of money or was it really straight up love?

Do I feel sympathy for the guy...erm no I don't. Sorry but what man thinks to fall in love with someone much younger, then run away together, only to get away from the entire country. Makes me laugh how short their trip was. His lawyer mentioned that Jack wanted to "lie low", yeah ofcourse he did! He's like twice her age and a frikin teacher!

I don't quiet understand why stating his GCSE results was so significant to include in an article, I mean are they trying to highlight his perfomance at her age? Seriously don't get the link at all, then to state which University he attended was a great shocker!

He did Journalism which makes me want to cry as it just doesn't seem right, to wish to do the same course as this crazy guy!

However, surely there was nothing he did that was wrong, no evidence that he slept with her, no evidence that he forced her into anything, no violence, yet then again he did hold his job at stake. Surely all he wanted was a relationship, is it so wrong that he fell in love with someone so young?

Attitudes towards relationships have changed though haven't they, with time it's almost become abnormal that you have to question the age of someone, ofcourse extreme differences are wrong, but I mean for my grand-parents there's like 10 years between them.

One detail i enjoyed reading was the idea that they planned to stay in France for another 6 months, so that when they came back to the UK Megan would be 16 making her legal. Still what's stopping people from frowning upon a relationship with a 16 and 31 year old? It's the same isn't it.

He has lost his profession and his trust, with his close friends, family and the rest of society.
She has lost taste, but on the whole she has gained more, she had the attention, the label of being vulnerable as a girl, attention amongst her family and friends.

I'm just angry that at the end of the day she'll be seen as the victim and him as the "perpetrator"
; in my opinion they were equally motivated.

Mark Duggan shooting

sorry I am just so frustrated over this article presented by The Guardian

http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk/2012/sep/27/mark-duggan-shooting-taxi-driver-evidence

now I fully understand that with the poccession of any sort of fire-arms is bad in itself.

but think...Mark was only transporting a gun for someone else,

forget the idea that guns are illegal for a second, because in hindsight we don't have any evidence that he was going to use it,

surely you have to think contextually, why was he doing this, it sounds to me more like a deal than him actually using it,

to have it in a shoe box gives the impression that it was like a parcel, totally planned disguise!

It's so unfair, the police are authority here, they should have atleast used the gun to stop him running, not to stop his life. They should have the practice to understand the consequences of open fire, why on earth would you do such a thing, has running after the baddy become too old fashioned now? Police had so much choice, after reading the article too it seemed as though they were hunting him down, so was it planned?

Mistake or no mistake, the police are still in the wrong, i;m sure if the gun was to do any harm...HELLO it didn't, Mark was innocent, he was an innocent man transporting a weapon contained in a box.

Hmmm so interesting how there is no mention of the police officers name, the guy who actually shot him, also there is no mention of their apology or even a slight idea of a "mistake".

All about ruling class ideology isn't it, the working class is seen as the criminal in the media in contrast to the corporate criminal who was in fact the officer who shot the guy, making him responsible for the end of someones life.

I see no Justice here at all, Mark had a gun...and a life.

The Police wanted the gun so they took away his life.

How very sad.

Talking about Tits

Tits up

Commenting on The Guardians article about women being victimized by people who have created this new thing called "Creepshot" where pictures are taken without the woman knowing, then shared online.

Basically women, you're being exposed wherever you go, now I don't know about you but that doesn't sound right to me, in fact I feel a bit worried that I have been out and about, here there everywhere and maybe...just maybe there could be a picture of me lurking on some next website for all to see.

Now the gross part about this is that celebrities who live the life of fame would experience this a lot right, due to paparazzi and exposures for the media to feast on in magazines galore. But this is public...private...anyone! I pity those who think it's a great idea to be honest, I mean the way it is stressed that these aren't just average pictures presenting a body, oh no, they actually try to take a good shot of breasts and you know where. Crazy to even think that there are people out there who would indulge in this filth. It is classed as a subculture in fact.

Sub-culture my ass.

It's just attention seeking, ofcourse having recently experienced the exposure of the Duchess of Cambridge we understand that security measures surely where not in tact there, because if a picture was taken from 'x' then surely other safety measures could have been broken for anyone's knowledge.

I am sure that having mentioned the superior measures of hassle that caused, this idea has even more of an awareness now to us. Us, the public who are of course seen with no voice what so ever. Yes I even visited the Hollaback LDN site , that is brilliantly organised I must say, but lets face reality here, posting your experience isn't going to solve your problem in the future is it? I mean you have to act there and then. Women are underestimated in term of physical strength and what have you, we are an easy target, but on the flip side we are this way as this is the expectation.

What about breaking this expectation, let your voice be heard, I am no radical Feminist, but I do stress that women should stand up, raise their voice if need be. It is hard harassment, voyeurism etc are only petty, yet surely if the petty isn't stopped this would encourage secondary crime i.e Rape.

Statistics show us that... 8% of rape allegations aren't true.

Is it a case of Justice or Injustice or both?.

unemployed

You know when you have tried your best, but obviously there's only so much you can do to get where you want...

Well whatever, I have applied to so many jobs and I think it's time to just accept that I won't ever get a part-time job before university. Yes I have even took trips on my own just to hand a cv in, yes I have drafted and re-drafted my cv untill perfection..did it make a difference..nah. Everyone around me have a job, it keeps them on their toes, but seriously fuck it, I guess it means I'll have to concentrate on my last year as hard as I can, what am I missing though?

Like no offense but for even those who have dropped out of school have jobs...shit pay, good pay, right now I couldn't care but I want one just so that I can nod when people ask me if I have a job.

Who wouldn't work hard for money? Right now university is the key. That's a long procedure though right.

Then there's the "world of work" critisizing young people, of being lazy and blaming immigration for 'taking jobs', on a personal note I have searched local and in the city... no replies what so ever.

Even did an online application and 'with great regret' was rejected, so that eliminates the idea of not having the appropriate 'look' or whatever, It's so hard I hate it.

Makes me sound so lazy and stupid to be honest. Oh well that's life I guess, total concentration on my A-levels it is. Once I become some crazy Journalist I shall laugh in re-tail jobs and all those behind calling centers. Rahh stressful shit